Monday, June 26, 2006
school starts TODAY!
well.
for most people.
mine starts tmr.
lol.
lets see.
was awaken by ALOT of smses today.
urgh.
so noisy.
lol.
went to interchange.
met kerli.
went bugis.
bought PMK top.
saw a VERY NICE top in 77th street.
no money buy.
SUPER SAD.
=(
who wanna sponsor?
lol.
$26+.
not very ex.
wahahah.
jkjk.
hmm.
went to 492 court.
sigh.
TRIED to talk to them.
gave up.
i don't know what to do anymore.
it's funny how two hands can spin so fast
despite trying to hang on the past
somewhere in my history i still can see
that happy girl i used to be
a circular path with dots and numbers
a sound that goes tick tock
i wan to move back to one pm
yet i'm stuck in this lonely clock
with pictures evoking with memories
my eyes feel wet and sour
now i finally realised when we were together
was the best moment every hour
a normal place, a normal void deck
is filled with our laughter
now there is no sound of the bouncing ball
my tears i try 2 cover
there was a time when we were fooling around
a time when we were united
now that lonely void deck leaves not a soul
because we're separated
kerli composed it.
felt my heart breaking.
some people might think we are over-reacting.
try losing a close friend.
then you come back to this blog.
we lost about FIVE close friends.
heart-pain.
i have nothing to say.
i did everything i could.
to TRY and salvage our friendship with them
but...
maybe...
they just DON'T want us as friends anymore.
is it time to move on?
i don't want to.
and now school's starting again.
maybe its better this way.
i'll be busy.
and i wont have to think so much.
yea.
maybe.
i think i have never been so emotional in my entire life before.
seriously.
ask abby.
ask ele.
i think.
last time.
whenever i'm with them.
i talked about 492 people.
those guys.
how they brought joy into my life.
how they never fail to make me laugh.
how much i enjoy their company.
but now.
.
.
.
i dont know what to think anymore.
i typed out this message i meant to send one of them.
the one i'm CLOSEST to.
its 3 FULL pages long.
but i have not send it yet.
i saved it in my phone.
maybe.... i might need to send it soon.
about this issue.
sigh.
don't bother cheering me up guys.
no use.
but thanks for all of your support.
and please dont go this happens all the time.
it don't.
its really more complicated than what i've tagged.
so yea.
thanks guys.
me_________`e-leen *
9:38 PM
